You are correct Dave when you say on a good day it is good and on a bad day it is hard as some times you just want to give up but to give means I loose . And I went let any disease or disability win that easy. At times it puts a huge strain on our partners and our relation ships but some of are lucky to have the partners we do .the pond is my way of seeing me win as I no exactly how hard this is going to be for me . Once I would have built this project in next to no time ,know it will take all of my time to work away at it bit by bit but I won't to be able to one day sit down with a cupa and look at my ponds, plants and fish and no that I made this happen when so many others would have put it into the to hard basket.So you make sure you take pride in your Koi and keep showing them as long as you can,